horoscope

I have read my horoscope everyday since the 1st and Im so surprised its hit everyday right on the nose. I just find that fascinating.
Sorry I don't have much to tell at the moment. Nothing exciting has happened in the last few weeks. The boys go to school and the babies drive me crazy at home. The house is constantly messy. Just when I finish a load of laundry I turn and theres another one waiting. I can't think of anything to make for dinner any more, and Im sick and tired of the cold weather I want to play outside.
On the good side. Dave is in the final stages of his deployment. They have been really busy keeping the peace during the Iraqi elections. Now they will start preparing for the replacement brigade to take over and for their trip home. We are on the down hill slope from here. Thank goodness because I have definitely had enough of this separation thing. I may be independent, but I hate being forced to do things on my own. I want my buddy back.

Ski trip

I went skiing!!!! The last time I was on a pair of skis was 15 years ago with my dear friend Bernadette. Thankfully I remembered everything she taught me and made it down the mountain with no broken bones.

My brother Jason is a snow border and goes up every chance he gets and this time I got to tag along. Only I can't even skate bored so I chose to ski instead. We went to Santa Fe since I am nowhere ready for the big dog mountains of Colorado. My first mishap was right out of the shoot at the top of the bunny hill. I wasn't prepared for the chair lift to literally push me off so I lost my balance and fell. That was ok because after picking out rental equipment in a room that felt and smelled like a sauna. I was already sweating, so the snow up my coat sleeve felt nice. Once I got myself back up on my feet and stopped laughing I put my brain in high gear and turned my feet inward to point my skis like an arrow and down I went. VERY SLOWLY. Once I made it down I plowed straight into a snow bored chick who was taking her foot out of the binding. My brother says it was her fault for stopping the the middle of the run. Once I collected my cool and apologized profusely we got back on the chair lift for a second crack at it. This time I was ready for the push and away I went all the way down the bunny slope. I took my time and even looked at some of the adults in ski school and thought to myself I'm a pro. Once Jason and I thought I had gotten the hang of it we decided to go up to the TOP of the mountain. I say TOP because it was literally the TOP. There was nowhere else to go. This is were the real fun begins. As we get on the chair lift to take us to the TOP one of my polls gets stuck in the grate and I drop it. Jason yells back and tells the chair lift guy that we will back to get it. Then he turns to me and asks if I can ski with only one poll. I look at him and say "I guess we'll fine out" As we are going up and up and up I just cant help to notice all of the runs are pretty steep, but Jason assures me that we will go on the switch back runs that wont be so steep. When we get off the 1 hour chair lift ride (that was a joke it wasn't really 1 hour just making the point that it was really high) I grab my one poll and turned to make my way down when it hits me I'm looking STRAIGHT DOWN!!! I'm not looking at a nice little slope I'm looking at the bottom of the entire mountain. I take a breath and pray and look at my brother and "what the hell Jay? How am I going to make it down?" to which he says very slowly and good luck! I take one step forward and fall flat on my butt were I continue to slide for at least 100 feet not knowing if I should be screaming or laughing because I am doing both. Once I get up and get my barrings straight I realize I'm still at the TOP. I really hadn't gone as far as I hoped. I'm scared because off to the right is the cliff. I know its the cliff because there is a nylon rope with a sign hanging from it that's says CLIFF. and off to the left is another sign that says Black Diamond Run. (the black diamond is for PROFESSIONALS) Needless to say 1 1/2 hours at least 30 falls including one straight on my face later I make it down to the club house. Were we stop to order a hot chocolate with a shot of courage to help me make it down the rest of the mountain. I tell my brother to go ahead without me. I'm staying on my bunny slope for the rest of the day.

I had so much fun I really cant explain. I will definitely be going back, but this time I'm not going to the TOP. I would like to thank a few people for making this awesome day for me.

First Thanks be to God for creating such a wonder. I may have a sore hip, but the peace and beauty of that mountain was so worth it.

Thank you to Brandi for letting me borrow her ski jacket. It really was warm and I will have the hole repaired from the tree branch that grabbed a hold of me. JK.

Thank you to the hippie chair lift dude that said I looked hot coming down the bunny slope.

Thanks to Bernadette who 15 years ago pushed me down the bunny slope and taught me how to ski in the first place.

And most importantly THANK YOU Jason for sticking by me and not letting me fall off the cliff. I had such an wonderful day and I owe it all to you. Since it was your idea to go up to the TOP.

Mamma's Tool Box

Get your head out of the gutter on that title....About a month ago the boys asked me if they could take down their bunk beds, and so I did. About a week later Brian's bed started to wiggle. I noticed that the screws that hold the frame together had become loose and tried to tighten them with my fingers. It didn't work very well, but it did stop the wiggle. Yesterday as I was trying to put clean sheets on the bed the bed fell apart and I was laughed at. Later while the boys were outside playing and the babies were down for a nap I decided it was time to fix that bed once and for all. So I went and got the tool box and tightened all the screws and bolts. Last night Brian got into bed and told me thank you for fixing his bed. He thought he was going to have to wait until dad came home before it got fixed. He didn't think I knew how to use tools. I told him that of course I know how to use tools who do you think taught me? Daddy.

Time for a change

I've noticed that this year is going to be the year for change. I like the idea that if your not happy with your life then change it. Look in the mirror if you see someone you don't like, than change. If you feel like you have to be drunk to enjoy a night out with your friends and you don't like that, then change. I'm sure your friends don't like you like that anyway. If your not happy with yourself then change things so that you will be happy. Even if its new hair style or change in wardrobe. Just do it.
I have six months left here with my parents and I'm not happy, but I decided that I will make the change in trying to control my parents house. I think if I just give in I will be happier and enjoy this last bit of time here with them. These are my kids, but this is my parents house so if they choose to let the children eat cookies at 10pm then so be it. I will just send them back to daddy boot camp when we move away. The change for me will not be in my appearance. I'm very happy with the way I look. I'm still hot. hehehe, but my change will be in my attitude. So if you hear me humming a little tune or smiling a lot more please don't think I'm falling off the deep end. I'm just trying to find my happiness in a time when I'm not so happy.

school

Yippee Yahoo school is back in session!!! I think I was more excited then the boys were. As exciting as it is I'm still not kicking back in a nice peaceful house because the babies are sick. Yes both of them at the same time. I try not to give them any medication until they really need it so unfortunately we all suffer for a while until the meds kick in, but now they are just doped up and restless. In fact they are asleep now as I should be, but I know just as I fall asleep one of them will wake up. so I'll wash vomit blankets and vegetate in front of the t.v until I am summoned. oops see that didn't take long. Gotta go.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! I sure hope this year is better then the last. Since I dont have any vices like smoking or drinking to try and stop for my resolution. I think this year I will just try to be happier and spend my time better with my children. Whats yours?