No news is good news right? Still nothing confirming Dave leaving.
I have applied for several government jobs and so far I was turned down for one and accepted for another, so now I'm just waiting on a phone call for an interview time. In the mean time I'm also waiting to see if I was accepted for any of the other jobs as well. I decided to try and go for a government GS position instead of walking into a simple travel agency as I have always done. The pay is twice as much as I have ever made and there is a greater chance for promotions.
The family is same ol same ol. Boys go to school and the babies keep the house just dirty enough for me to have something to do. Sorry not a lot going on here at the moment so until next time....

Dave is packing up for a possible trip to Haiti. This is a deployment I can deal with, but the conditions make me worry. He went to Haiti in 1994 for a humanitarian mission, so he remembers what things were like. Lots of sick and homeless people everywhere, hot, smelly, bad mosquitoes and of course the tremendous amount of people who have HIV and AIDS. Now the situation is 100 times worse and I pray he is even more vigilant of the people around him. He has a huge heart and I know he will do anything that needs to be done, if it's digging in the rubble, applying first aid, passing out supplies or security he will do it tirelessly. He does not know for sure if he is going or how long he will be gone or if he will even be able to call home once he is there. I'll keep you posted.

After hours of discussion Dave and I have decided to take things slow on the boutique. We both felt that we got a little ahead of ourselves. We are still going to do our best to open a store, but probably not my June of this year.
Dave is still committed to the army, and until they give him the final retirement we must not make such huge plans when truth be told we might be asked to move again. This is ok, it will give us time to replenish out bank accounts and make it look to the banks that we can actually payback a business loan.
I have come to the realization that I am NOT a stay at home mom. As much as I wish I was, I am not. I love my children to no end, but honestly I need time away from them every now and again. I am loosing my sense of self. I'm more unhappy than happy and unfortunately I tend to take it out on Dave. He has always known I was not meant to stay home, but he also knew I needed to figure it out for myself. Finally after 3 years I've figured it out, so my resume is up to date and I have begun the job search. I'll let you know what happens.